Quick-Stop OR Pit-Stop

So on this journey I took what I thought would be a quick-stop, but it ended up turning into a pit-stop! Yep, I dug this nice hole of laziness at the nearest Sleep Inn. To some it may not have seem like it, but mentally and internally I was dealing with a lot. It was nothing too major, but enough for me to make me want to sit down and rest my feet and not care if I get any further on this journey.

PRAISE GOD! That mindset has changed. I haven't met all the deadlines I have planned for myself, but HE knows what HE is doing!

This weekend I heard an awesome word from some dynamite women of God! In summary the thought was this: "What may LOOK like a SET BACK is only a SET UP! You are not making a combat, because from the time God breathed life into you you were FEARFULLY AND WONDERFULLY MADE, BLESSED, PROSPEROUS and whatever else God has placed in your Spiritual DNA! It NEVER left you!"

Those words meant a lot to me and carried a revelation I never carefully thought of, because at a point in my life I felt like I was living in a set back, but who knew it was just a set up! It was like Gods way of slowing me down so I wouldn't move to fast, testing me , and yes my flesh had something to do with it too, BUT now there's a launching pad in front of me!

So I have left the pit-stop and the only stop that needs to be made is a quick-stop! God doesn't take breaks, and yes, I know I am not God; however, ministry must go forth, my dreams must become reality, and in order for these things to happen I have to move with the season and IN MY YOUTH! So that in my later years of wisdom I will not regret those days that are behind!

When You've Lost Focus - A Writer In Distress

We all coming to a breaking point, and lately, I think I've been reaching near to mine
But it's taking every bit of sanity and prayer I can whisper to God to get me through
Yes, I've held on to some tears, and if I had sense, I would just let them go
But my sense of control of my emotions are at it's best, when I may need it to be at its worst

In my lack, I've found my focus to be lost and my rest to be disrupted
It seems so hard to regtain it all back
But if I was to tell the truth, I don't want the focus I had back
Now that I am encountering life at a different angle, do you not believe a new focus is needed?

Ok, so yes, I need to prioritize
But like I told myself earlier during my distress
I am realizing that some of the goals I have are not of my own
But only to make "them" happy

Yes, I want it for myself
But I've pushed myself to a limit that has caused me to grow weary
Yes, the bible says not to weary in well doing, Galations 6:9
But the Lord knows my spirit man exist in the flesh of a human

I am tired
I am worned
I am human
Never God

My middle school friends once called me Super Woman
My cousin whom I've only seen once says I have a busy life
I go around from school, work, and church
And the cycle repeats

I try to be Super Woman
My life is busy
And between school, work, and church
My being is beat

So, after I finish flunking this one course and sucessfully completing the other 5 courses
The rush will be over, because I am no longer pressed
Yes, I want to finish, but I must minimize the strain
Therefore, I will slow my pace

There's so much more that's going on in my life
So, no it's not school
It's everything from my job to my relationship with friends and family
It's even conflicting with my spirituality

I don't know what more to say besides the fact I am sitting in Panera
Trying to get around to an assignment that's due by 5pm
Which is the time I have to be at work
But I felt the need to blog

I'm not sure if you will get anything from this
Besides a piece of my mind and the life I live daily
But I hope in your journey of being focused
You find the peace to help balance it...

In Your Detour You'll Find...

Walking the paths of my thoughts
Finding frustration and aggravation
And in other places,
Finding peace and salvation
What manner of man am I,
That I feel obligated towards destruction
We may never realize it,
But we often go to the places of distress first
Before we ever settle for delight

For example, we rather take the detour
And yes, it may be scenic
Lands of green, skies of blue, hills reaching high
But it's moments before we reach the valley
Then we realize how will I ever rise again

We thought we knew what we were doing
And if we didn't, we consulted that "dear friend"
Dear friend gave us the route to our destruction
They advised us, gave us a plan, and we took it on

How could we drown in our own thoughts
That counsel from a fool betrayed you for wise counsel

You got time... It's not like HE's coming back tomorrow....
You're still young... Have some fun...

(To Be Finished...)

All Mine- 2012

 I have seen something else under the sun: The race is not to the swift or the battle to the strong, nor does food come to the wise or wealth to the brilliant or favor to the learned; but time and chance happen to them all.

Ecclesiastes 9:11

We have come to the beginning of a New Year and never have I been so excited about it! Embarking on new adventures and not backing down. Staying motivated and conquering each and every endeavor! I claim this year as MINE! I'm not quite sure what to expect, but whatever God does I know it's perfect and in His will! Before I wanted to be married and graduate college this year, not saying those things won't happen, but those are not my goals for this year. My goal is to please God, and not only that, but to stop sleeping on some of these dreams and ideas that I so often play with and think about.

Before I faced a lot of fear and DOUBT, and not being quite sure how to go about the things that were placed on my heart. The funny part is, I know my resources! But it was the DOUBT I had that really played a part in it! And with doubt I LOST focus. I never realized how much I doubted myself before 2011 (thanks to Obsessed). With my singing, dancing/miming, writing, and my ideas. I became consumed with what everybody else was doing and how they were accomplishing it and while focusing on them I lost myself!


I've learned that my journey in this life is different from everyone elses. Let's be quite frank, most of the people I was watching were going on the SAME journey! Nobody was there own. I'm not saying it's a bad thing, but I was expected to travel that road with them. But, unlike some people, I was too busy questioning myself and trying to figure out if that journey was God's will for my life. Better yet, I was trying to figure out if this is what I really wanted, and if not, what did I want.


2012 is here, and I am still not quite sure what I want or what's going to happen, but my spirit is done with competing; and I know there's something better instored for me this year! Literally, I just feel it in this leaping spirit of mine! I don't want your journey. I want to personally sign my journey with the setback, with the challenges I face and so forth! Don't get me wrong, I am not saying these people didn't go through anything, I don't know their story. But I've taken my focus OFF of people. That alone was a setback, people! Watching what they did, why it's not happening for me, caring what they may have thought of me and etc...


Like the title says 2012 IS MINE! I can't hold back anymore! I'm ready to take all! I've allowed distractions to come, and I have allowed myself to loose focus. And to be quite frank, it brought me to a breaking point and heighten my humility. So I know whatever is accomplished from here on out (not to exclude before) in my life is only by the HELP, the GRACE, the MERCY, and FAVOR of GOD!


The verse Ecclesiastes 9:11 is only an expression of how I'm going to achieve what God has planned for me and will allow me to accomplish. Because like I said, I was so caught up with what my peers and others around me were doing, I wanted to be where they are. Yet alone, I was bombarded with what I needed to get done as well. But God knows what He's doing. He watched me try to accomplish what He knew was too much for me. He watched me get caught up with the things I so badly wanted to be a part of and still carried me through.


2012, I don't know what to expect, but GREATER this year! Like I said before, God is not carrying me through HELL if GREATER is not PREPARED for ME!

Sidebar: 2012- The year of Establishment and Government (perfect) <<<<< A friend asked me what was my goal for 2012 and I told him "To get on my 2 feet..." and that when I remembered what the number 12 means! It's funny how God aligns us with HIS word!

Grand Exit Into A Grand Entry

(I’ve never written a “testimonial/declaration” as such as this one. But this is what 2011 challenged me with! I’ve always been the one people looked up to, and keeping that image this year was tough. I may have kept it up. I don’t know and I don’t care. The fact is I made it another year ALIVE and God by my side! Like you’re about to read, 2011 was tough. I don’t explain it all, and some of it wasn’t even that bad, but its what I dealt with internally. I don’t tell people much of my frustration with life, school, church, and even God. But I decided to let you all peek in just a little. And if you follow me on twitter, I’m sure you’ve observed there! Lol But anyway, I hope my little testimony and declaration sheds some light on your own situation and that you decide to move on to GREATER with me! BUT, don’t forget to bring GOD with you! HE has all the Greatness; therefore, being in relationship with HIM is the only way we will be able to reach it! ….. Now, READ ON!)

2011 you have been the most challenging year I have faced in my life! Can you say "BOOT CAMP 2011!" Not because of money issues, not because of problems on the job, but my relationship with Christ was attacked and not only that but my relationship with MYSELF was attacked too! It was to the point I was so consumed with work, school AND church I didn't even realized God existed and who I was. Praying, Loving, Being Thankful, and Acknowledging HIM daily like I should was occupied with: "what do I have to do today" "if I don't do this, this will happen" "I have to do this, otherwise he/she will be upset with me".

There were times it seemed like I was running around looking like a "chickens head cut off!" I lost balance, I lost sense of who I was, I was afraid of disappointing others, while all at the same time trying to take care of Whitney. When I should've been facing God and asking Him to carry me through and take care of me!

And yes, some of it I blame on myself! I took on some loads that were too heavy for my back until it got to the point I came a bit absent minded and not even caring anymore! I struggled with school, hurting people, losing commitment; which caused the value of who I was to be degraded. There were even people I was hurt by and confused about. And til this day I'm still confused about!

Don't get me wrong! We had a few awesome days! Days I'll never forget and I had victories that put me in awe! BUT, 2012 I plan to conquer A LOT MORE than what I did in 2011! There's GREATER prepared! HOWEVER, I refuse to go out of 2011 feeling defeated! With that said, I'm preparing for a GRAND EXIT, but only to make a GRAND ENTRY into 2012!

2012, you will be my year, I've been claiming you all of 2011 and I've been in anticipation for you! I may not accomplish all I had in mind for 2012, but my mindset will not be defaulted! As me and a friend like to say "I'm getting my life together" I have EXPECTATIONS and GREATER is my mindset! I’m not one to make resolutions, or one to say I’m going to change and do all this boastful talking about the New Year, but I will BE BETTER and I will DO BETTER!

This year I won’t wait for advice from family and friends and prophetic words from the preacher. I’ll chase God down with my prayers, and use the common sense He gave me too! I know there’s a “new journey” in life waiting for me. And I embarked on it this year, I took risk and challenges, I had some failures and setbacks. There were some detours and I got lost! But in 2012 we will proceed to move forward.

2012 I will not compromise who I am, I can’t allow that to happen! Because someone is waiting for me to screw up good, someone is waiting to take my place, and I REFUSE TO LET GO: of my purpose, of my destiny, and of my dreams. A stronger passion has been created, a stronger initiative is on the move, and I won’t wait any longer to apply my dream into my reality!

Going Steady

My blog doesn't have to be composed of sentences on top of sentences and bundles of paragraphs perfectly framed to fit the page.

Where I break in my sentence is where I please and if I decided to use ain't instead of isn't, then that's fine too.

We get consumed with presentation, when for me my mind is just consumed with getting the thought down.

Forget words that include 10 consonants and all vowels into one word. Just give me something simple, such as this thought I have here...

"Going Steady"

I been fighting eith presentation

I been fighting with wording

Of how I want to present this blog and how I wanted to say it

But it came out as a headache

And as I rested my head for God to lay me down to sleep, I pray my soul He keeps...

The thoughts began to form...

"Going Steady"

There's no need to rush

Pace yourself, and it will all get accomplished

Quit playing catch up and keep your focus

Don't make it to the finish line before your time

And if you do, be prepared to not be well equipped

Get what you need

"GO STEADY"

It'll be there waiting for you

Process what you have

Don't look at what others have because God didn't create you as your "neighbor"

Focus on what He gave you to use and stop borrowing

GO STEADY

Take Gods hand and He'll lead the way

Most of us have gone so long without holding His hand...

It's time to turn back now

Pray, Fast, Read HIS Word

GO STEADY

You don't want to end up in something you're not ready for

He'll show you how to get there

GO STEADY

There I said it! #RELIEVED

I Trust You

All night I been trying to get my thoughts ready to write on "Going Study." But this "I Trust You" idea keeps battling it out. SO I guess I'll just go with it.

I Trust You
I have never heard those words ring in my ear like I heard this week
It's almost like the phrase "I love you"
But, truth be told, "I trust you" seems to hold a greater depth
In the bible it tells us to trust no man (Psalm146:3, Matthew 6:24)
And prior to understanding that
I battled in previous relationships with having trust
Through my love, I showed I trusted them
Never did I tell him
But, as soon as he broke my heart it was
"I don't trust you no more!"
SO, to hear those words was unfamiliar to my ear
Especially from someone you least expected to express such an emotion
It's not that I don't feel trusted
I've seen it shown and expressed several times through leadership, relationships, and friendships
But this time the ring from this bell sounded different this time
"I trust you"