In Your Detour You'll Find...

Walking the paths of my thoughts
Finding frustration and aggravation
And in other places,
Finding peace and salvation
What manner of man am I,
That I feel obligated towards destruction
We may never realize it,
But we often go to the places of distress first
Before we ever settle for delight

For example, we rather take the detour
And yes, it may be scenic
Lands of green, skies of blue, hills reaching high
But it's moments before we reach the valley
Then we realize how will I ever rise again

We thought we knew what we were doing
And if we didn't, we consulted that "dear friend"
Dear friend gave us the route to our destruction
They advised us, gave us a plan, and we took it on

How could we drown in our own thoughts
That counsel from a fool betrayed you for wise counsel

You got time... It's not like HE's coming back tomorrow....
You're still young... Have some fun...

(To Be Finished...)

All Mine- 2012

 I have seen something else under the sun: The race is not to the swift or the battle to the strong, nor does food come to the wise or wealth to the brilliant or favor to the learned; but time and chance happen to them all.

Ecclesiastes 9:11

We have come to the beginning of a New Year and never have I been so excited about it! Embarking on new adventures and not backing down. Staying motivated and conquering each and every endeavor! I claim this year as MINE! I'm not quite sure what to expect, but whatever God does I know it's perfect and in His will! Before I wanted to be married and graduate college this year, not saying those things won't happen, but those are not my goals for this year. My goal is to please God, and not only that, but to stop sleeping on some of these dreams and ideas that I so often play with and think about.

Before I faced a lot of fear and DOUBT, and not being quite sure how to go about the things that were placed on my heart. The funny part is, I know my resources! But it was the DOUBT I had that really played a part in it! And with doubt I LOST focus. I never realized how much I doubted myself before 2011 (thanks to Obsessed). With my singing, dancing/miming, writing, and my ideas. I became consumed with what everybody else was doing and how they were accomplishing it and while focusing on them I lost myself!


I've learned that my journey in this life is different from everyone elses. Let's be quite frank, most of the people I was watching were going on the SAME journey! Nobody was there own. I'm not saying it's a bad thing, but I was expected to travel that road with them. But, unlike some people, I was too busy questioning myself and trying to figure out if that journey was God's will for my life. Better yet, I was trying to figure out if this is what I really wanted, and if not, what did I want.


2012 is here, and I am still not quite sure what I want or what's going to happen, but my spirit is done with competing; and I know there's something better instored for me this year! Literally, I just feel it in this leaping spirit of mine! I don't want your journey. I want to personally sign my journey with the setback, with the challenges I face and so forth! Don't get me wrong, I am not saying these people didn't go through anything, I don't know their story. But I've taken my focus OFF of people. That alone was a setback, people! Watching what they did, why it's not happening for me, caring what they may have thought of me and etc...


Like the title says 2012 IS MINE! I can't hold back anymore! I'm ready to take all! I've allowed distractions to come, and I have allowed myself to loose focus. And to be quite frank, it brought me to a breaking point and heighten my humility. So I know whatever is accomplished from here on out (not to exclude before) in my life is only by the HELP, the GRACE, the MERCY, and FAVOR of GOD!


The verse Ecclesiastes 9:11 is only an expression of how I'm going to achieve what God has planned for me and will allow me to accomplish. Because like I said, I was so caught up with what my peers and others around me were doing, I wanted to be where they are. Yet alone, I was bombarded with what I needed to get done as well. But God knows what He's doing. He watched me try to accomplish what He knew was too much for me. He watched me get caught up with the things I so badly wanted to be a part of and still carried me through.


2012, I don't know what to expect, but GREATER this year! Like I said before, God is not carrying me through HELL if GREATER is not PREPARED for ME!

Sidebar: 2012- The year of Establishment and Government (perfect) <<<<< A friend asked me what was my goal for 2012 and I told him "To get on my 2 feet..." and that when I remembered what the number 12 means! It's funny how God aligns us with HIS word!